Her Daughter’s Death Didn’t Break Her

Hey weirdo,

Some stories aren’t “career transitions.”

They’re earthquakes.

I sat down with Kanika Vasudeva thinking we’d talk about energy work, Akashic Records, subconscious patterns… that kind of thing.

What I didn’t expect was this:

She had everything.

MBA. Engineering degree. Fortune 500 projects. Multimillion-dollar systems. The kind of résumé LinkedIn froths over.

On paper, she won.

Inside?

Burned out. Empty. Disconnected.

And then she gave birth to a stillborn daughter.

Let that land for a second.

She told me there was a moment she didn’t want to live anymore.

Not metaphorically.

Actually.

But she had a two-year-old son. A tiny human running around with that chaotic toddler energy… fingers in sockets, laughing at crinkled paper like it’s magic.

And she couldn’t reconcile it.

How does one soul lose all desire to live…
while another is ecstatic about a piece of paper?

That contrast cracked something open.

And here’s the part most people won’t say out loud:

She was angry at the universe.

She questioned everything.

And somewhere in that darkness, she started searching — not for motivation… but for meaning.

Before this, her life was built around achievement.

Do what you’re supposed to do.
Get the degrees.
Get the titles.
Get the money.
Then you’ll feel fulfilled.

You know that script.

We’ve all read it.

But when everything collapsed, she realized something brutal:

She had built the “right” life.

It just wasn’t hers.

And that’s the part that scares people.

Because it means you can do everything “correctly”… and still feel empty.

Kanika explains the Akashic Records like this:

Imagine your soul is an apple.

This lifetime?
It’s a paper-thin slice.

Most of us think the slice is everything.

But what if the patterns we’re living… the triggers, the fears, the repeated relationship dynamics… are older than we think?

She doesn’t just read people’s records.
She works on the “glitches.”

The old software.

The imprint that makes you react before you think.

You don’t have to believe in past lives to understand this part:

A lot of us are running code we didn’t consciously write.

I asked her something that I think matters.

When people “heal” — is it removal?

Or is it awareness?

Because in my own life, most of my pain shifted when I could finally see it clearly.

Her answer?

Both.

Awareness opens the door.

But intention and energetic work can actually shift the imprint.

Now… whether you see that as spiritual, neurological, psychological — that’s up to you.

But the results she described?

Radical shifts in behavior. Anxiety dissolving. Patterns breaking.

And honestly… that’s what we’re all after, isn’t it?

Not perfection.

Freedom.

I told her something I don’t always say publicly.

There was a point in my own life where I didn’t want to be here either.

I didn’t lose a child. I won’t pretend our stories are the same.

But I know what it feels like to wake up and feel nothing.

And I know what it feels like to wake up and actually want to do something again.

That shift?

That’s everything.

That’s why The Weird Canadian exists.

It’s not a brand pivot.

It’s me refusing to live someone else’s script anymore.

Kanika believes her daughter came to wake her up.

That’s her language.

You can interpret it however you want.

But here’s what I can’t ignore:

She went from corporate burnout and suicidal despair
to building a business helping people clear the patterns that keep them stuck.

That’s not fluff.

That’s evolution.

If you’re reading this and you feel stuck… numb… burned out… quietly wondering if this is all there is…

It’s not.

But you might have to let something die.

Not a person.

An identity.

An expectation.

A version of you that was built to survive — not to live.

And that part?

That’s uncomfortable as hell.

But it’s worth it.

Always.

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If this resonated, hit reply and tell me what part punched you in the chest.

I read every one.

Cody